Bedtime Thoughts

I have been a little down in the dumps lately as I have come to realize that some things I really wanted are not going to work out the was I planned. That last sentence has a big problem....it says MY PLAN! I have had some revelations over the past three days and I haven't been to pleasant about them. However, I have asked God to give me an "in your face" sign to some questions and He held His end of the bargain. Hah I guess it's true don't ask if you don't want to know. Anyway, in my day of self-pity and self-searching I realized that I have let worry get the best of me and I was completely miserable because of it.

As I was laying here in bed I realized that I have not taken time out of my day to enjoy the blessings in life. So here it goes I'm going to list some things from this weekend and today that I am thankful for.

1. I have great friends.
2. I have a caring family-even if I don't want them to be so caring.
3. I bought beautiful flowers for my mom's grave and they were on sale---she would be SO proud. I've also made it a personal goal for her flowers to outshine the others. Haha
4. I really love my boyfriend. He puts up with a lot.
5. I have an assistant this year and we are already great friends.
6. I have a fun and flexible job.

This isn't much of a list but I needed to show myself that there are things to be thankful for. On a side note I've also noticed some changes in myself. I'm not as laid back as I used to be. I'm not as carefree and exciting. I'm trying to get back to the "old" Melanie. My wounds from the past year are still slowly healing but I'm ready to let God remind me of the fun loving girl He made. Please keep me in your prayers!